So, I finally got a teaching job last October (YAY!). I quit said teaching job in June (Whoops!).
I have wanted to be a teacher since I was 7 years old. It is literally the only career I ever truly considered. (I thought about being an interior decorate in middle school when I was obsessed with Trading Spaces, but I am not artistic enough.) So, to be in my own classroom should have felt like a dream come true, but it wasn’t. I hated it. Even thinking about being in a classroom again has my chest constricting.
This makes it seem as if I hated everything about teaching, but that is not the case. Here is a list of what I did like:
1) The students—even the pains in the asses were lovable at times. The relationships created between myself and my students is probably what I will miss the most.
2) The other teachers—one of the things that had me hesitating to quit was the friendships I had made. I absolutely love the teachers at that school and wish that I could have made it work.
3) The school itself—I loved the principal, the teachers, the students, the support staff, etc. The school was under renovation and I still loved it. If it wouldn’t be super awkward I would go back and sub there.
Alas, it just wasn’t meant to be. I think it’s funny. During school everyone always said, don’t judge teaching based on your experiences as a sub-they’re nothing alike. I should have realized then that I might not like teaching because I LOVED subbing. I think because it was everything fun about working in the school without actually having to teach. The teaching is what I hated! Creating lesson plans, modifying them, differentiating, grading 120 essays…all of this is what I abhorred. It might make me sound lazy, but so be it. At least I can admit it.
I have thought long and hard about what I want to do now. I’m 26 years old and still have time to figure out what to do with my life. I am 99% positive that I want to go back to school and get a Master’s Degree in Library Science. I am also pretty sure that I want to be a Library Media Specialist. I still want to work in a school and create those meaningful relationships with students that will impact their lives. I just applied for a paraprofessional position in a library media center and I hope that I get it. This will give me the opportunity to see if I would enjoy working as a LMS or if I should start exploring other options.
Any other former teachers on here go through a similar situation? Any Library Media Specialists that want to tell me about what they do? I have a general idea, but would love to know more about the specifics.